光 – A Work in Progress

A few weeks ago, i posted an entry on how I had this alternate badass image of myself dying to come out. With that I wanted a leather jacket, a chain, and maybe a tattoo.

Well it’s been a few weeks, and most of that has subsided… except for the tattoo. I’ve put a lot of thought about what would be meaningful for me, or even where it would be located.

If you’ve been following this blog, you’ve noticed that I’ve mentioned time and time again with this idea of The Tension and the Spark. It’s basically this idea that with every challenge comes the frustration and tension of being in the dark, but eventually there’ll be this end of the tunnel, this spark, that often comes unexpected yet at the right time.

What’s more is that the Japanese word for light (or in this case spark) is pronounced as “Hikari,” which is also the name of one of my favourite artists who has shaped me into who I am today — Utada Hikaru / 宇多田光. (The other would be Rufus Wainwright.)

And that’s why I think i’m pretty settled on a tattoo of this word: 光. I cannot say that I’m quite at the spark stage in life yet, but that is where I’m aiming toward and with that my tattoo should be a representation of that, whenever i finally do feel ready.