Peaceful at the Bigger Picture

Tuesday, 17 October 2006 in General

So remember how there was this episode of Moesha where the guys from MTV went to her house to shoot an episode of MTV’s Fanatic? No..? Because only four people in the entire world happened to watch that non-funny sitcom? (My sympathy goes to those four people, btw…)

Well that kinda happened yesterday. There’s this really popular Chinese-Christian show (恩語之聲) and my parents are going to be featured for an upcoming show. My dad’s been giving speeches to local churches on my mom’s miraculous recovery. He’s really proud of her, and my mom is excited that she’s in the spotlight.

Anyway, they came and spent half the day interviewing my parents. Despite my disbelief that my mom’s recovery was credited to God’s work, i was also very happy to see my parents so happy. I may be wrong, but i’ve never seen them having so many friends as to now, so perhaps God really is in the work somehow.

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My family and i went out to dinner today and, while i was driving my dad mildly confessed, “I am getting old these days, i never used to get tired from solely driving.” The statement was quite an eye-opener for me, since i never really though of my dad as an elderly. But with him turning sixty this upcoming December, i guess the time really has come.

And just like that my mind is now at peace. I’m no longer thinking (bitterly) how my dad doesn’t understand how today’s world operates or how he can’t seem to decipher the wordless IKEA instruction manual. My parents are seemingly living in a retired world because they have earned the very right to do so. And it’s time for me to understand that.

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I’m actually really glad i quit my previous job in mid-September. I haven’t gotten a break since my college graduation in 2004 and finally i have the time to really spend to rest. The thing i have come to realized since my rest is the way of looking at the bigger picture. It’s hard to define what exactly the bigger picture is, but thinking back i used to be so hung up on one minuscule part of the proess that i tend to miss out the entire picture.

Say for my Hallmark job as an example, i used to get hung up on a tiny secondary-process flaw that i had to push back the production dates to risk delaying the high-impact project. But the bigger picture isn’t that, but moreso with everything i saw in life.

There was the tension, and i think i’m now starting to see the spark.

Love Wins