I originally didn’t want to talk about this, but given that i had decided to be transparent in the beginning i suppose i should do the same to give the same respect in beginning and end part of a journey.
The simple truth is that as of Thursday Chris and I are no longer seeing each other. The duration isn’t too long at three months, but it certainly is one of the longest relationship, however you define it may be, I’ve ever had.
I’m not going to dive in details or to make it bigger than it really is, but instead that i’m just really focusing on dealing with the hurt. The last couple days were relatively easy since it was easy to physically cry it out, but only when the tears have dried did the question really unveil itself: Now What?
I’m just as upset as i was on day one, but now it seems like i’m void of ways to actually expressing my emotions. My roommate, seeing first hand how this had peaked and fell through, is being very generous in giving me space to really deal with it. Thank you.
I’ve hardly talked to anyone about this, which is unlike me who is so transparent in my emotions. But to those who i did try it’s interesting in seeing whom i’ve opened up to even in risk of what’s already been established, and inversely there are some friendships i blatantly cannot attempt to deepen.
Meanwhile, I shall enjoy all the flavours of life.